"Here we go again... again"

This is getting embarrassing. Here I stand, on top of my broken promises, which I've shattered myself, and I feel defeated by this challenge. Even I don't believe myself as I write this, but all I can do is make a commitment to health and hope that something inside of me truly means it. My thirties are slowly creeping toward me and I am no closer to attaining my goal of losing however much weight it will take to make me feel worthy. So with the upcoming new year staring me in the face, I make another attempt, another promise to LOSE THIS WEIGHT. "Here I go again.... again..."

Back at One.

It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop.
Confucius

I have to start my sixty-day plan all over again. Last week, unprepared, I jumped into this two month plan with no real sense of commitment. I realize now that with attempting to lose weight, I have to be as prepared as I possibly could because without preparation, it is so easy to just give up. I realize at this point that promises are useless. All I can really do is put everything I can into losing weight and instead of hoping for the best, I should strive to be the best.

Day Three and a Half

I have now done my infomercial exercise for the past two days!!! I'm very pleased because I've been working long hours all week and I never thought I would be able to get up and just exercise. But I did! These exercises are insane but totally kicking my ass. (Just what I need)It's the best feeling when I can watch "The Biggest Loser" on television and not feel guilty when Jillian (or Bob, who is not so nice this season) goes off on a contestant for not sprinting for thirty seconds after a grueling hour of exercise. I do feel I need to up the ante on how long I exercise as my DVD workouts run for about forty minutes. But ... I'm getting ahead of myself. I'm showing some type of commitment to this sixty day thing!
The downside:
Today, I had oatmeal for breakfast, which is a good thing, but I managed to forget my lunch. Because of my long hours today at work, I had to resort to dining out. My choice for lunch was a turkey burger ... with a side of fries. Somehow, I rationalized that by eating those fries, I was not cheating on my diet. Halfway through my meal, I didn't feel so justified and proceeded to beat myself down. Despite the guilt, I managed to eat every single fry. The upside is I still kept my caloric intake to about 1300-1400 calories today. I'm not really sure it was the healthiest way to do so.
Anyway, water under the bridge. By the way, I've lost two pounds since I've started this thing so I'm doing something right! ;)

It just got serious

I'm watching "The Biggest Loser" and Jillian went off on someone for eating cupcakes. Wow, it just got serious.

Day One

So... day one was yesterday. It was ... okay. I stuck to my diet for the most part, but I waited too long to have dinner and I was starving. As for exercise, I didn't do the exercise I was supposed to because I felt exhausted yesterday. I'm feeling much better today so I will definitely be doing my exercise DVD. Day one and counting...

60 Day Challenge!!!!

So, I have lost a little, and I stress little, bit of weight. Really, I've lost an insignificant amount of weight and it is frustrating. As much as I hate restricting myself in any way, I have been far too lax the past few months. And so I have decided to go from one extreme to the other. Instead of no rules, I'm going to attempt to diet and exercise for the next 60 days, and possibly longer if I have the heart and conviction to stick with it, by following several rules. I know that I will go insane having to do very specific things to lose weight (i.e. limit caloric intake and exercise for certain number of days per week), but if in the end I reach my goal, I will be fine. Why 60 days? Well, I bought an infomercial from a website and the program is 60 days. I know it's crazy, but if I can't even do something for 60 days, then what hope do I have of ever reaching my goal? I am also committing to posting more blogs. Instead of the infrequent and random blogs I've been posting, I'm going to regularly post about my next 60 days. If I were to do this all on my own, I doubt that I would stick with it. But I am blogging about it in hopes that I'll feel more of an inclination to stand by my words, no matter what. I officially start tomorrow, which is a Monday. Wish me luck, and if any of you happen to see me on standing on a ledge, talk me out of it and remind me that it's not that bad.

Sometimes

Sometimes, moderation is just not possible. It's the desired outcome of dieting, but I can be unwilling. As I was enjoying my third glazed donut, and not the tiny Krispy Kreme donuts, but a real bona fide four-inch donut, I was trying to remind myself that moderation is important, my health is important. But that rational voice was overpowered by the soft dough as it seemed to dissolve in my mouth. One day of bad eating is forgivable, right?

A Belated "New Year's Resolutions"

Happy 2009! With that said, it's time to get down to it. So, I'm inching closer and closer to my mid-twenties, which means that my thirties are close by as well. I realized that I don't want to be thirty and overweight. I do have time, but time is something that goes by so fast. Also, I don't want another New Year where I have to make another resolution to lose weight. I want to lose weight now. And so, I've ditched ALL diets. After being on all of them, I've realized it's not the diet, it's me. Case in point: the Boston Celtics. For their season schedule, their coach, Doc Rivers, lists their opponents as "Boston Celtics." He argues that it's not the other team that affects the outcome of the game, it's themselves. I realized no matter what diet I pick, if I don't stick to it, it's worthless. I've also decided not to stick to any one diet because of the guilt that I feel when I don't follow it. However, I do still want to see results and too much flexibility will jeopardize that. Instead what I've opted to do is to write everything down. It's the one thing that I find works for me. Because I write everything I eat down, there is no whining or complaining. Why am I not seeing results? Oh, that cheeseburger. And ice cream. Why are my clothes tight? Oh, no exercise in two weeks. If there is a question regarding results, or lack thereof, it will be evident in my journal what the cause is. I think that accountability is a huge factor when attempting to lose weight. In the few weeks that I've been doing it, having to write down some of the food I want to eat turns me off to eating it. It makes me think about my food choices rather than mindlessly eating. Also, because I've been on so many diets and read so many diet books, I've learned a lot about nutrition. I can guage when I've had too many carbohydrates, or when I haven't had enough vegetables. I don't cut any food groups out, but I am making wiser choices. For instance, I love carbohydrates and no one can ever make me stop eating them. So what I've opted to do is to choose the better carbohydrates. (Just think brown over white) Of course, processed foods are never a good choice. So this year, I am making a resolution to cook more. Fast, easy, and healthy recipes can be found on the web. Cooking in time is also a life-saver on busy days.
Losing weight is extremely hard. That is why I've decided to take it one day at a time. Again, good luck.